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Well yesterday was the last day of high school. I felt kind of emotional while I was getting ready in the morning.
Though I snapped out of it pretty quick. I hate when people (and by people, I mean myself) attach good emotions to something that wasn't really good. I find it really easy to look at any period of time in the past and just go "Aw, that was a good/interesting/memorable time in my life! I wish I could go back for a little bit!"
And I hate doing that. I don't ever want to live in the past and I hate thinking about the past.
And to be completely honest, I never liked high school. It'd be silly to be all emotional and teary-eyed like I'd really loved the place or experienced so much there. I didn't. I went there for 7 hours a day for four years and hated school with a passion most of the time and didn't really make a ton of friends and didn't get involved. My memories are outside of those walls.
If anything, I just wish I'd left a greater affect. I wish I hadn't been so shy about talking about God until my junior or senior year. If my school needs anything, it needs Jesus. Badly. And I wish that I, as a Christian, had been doing a better job at witnessing.
But, as it's been said before, there's always tomorrow. If I've ever learned anything, it's that you've gotta drop the past if you want to move forward.

My parents are gone. Left this morning at 5:30 AM to go to North Carolina, where my Uncle Ronnie is staying with his son.
Uncle Ronnie's lung cancer is at it's worst stage now. He has days to live. And it's so sad. I wish I could've gone with them. I wish I could hear my Uncle Ronnie laugh and crack his jokes one more time. He is such a wonderful little man and I hate that I won't be able to see him. I doubt I'll even be able to go to his funeral. He'll just disappear from my life.

Now I'm crying. This is not how I wanted to start this morning.

There are two positives here, though, and I'm going to focus on those instead.
For starters, IT'S SUMMER VACATION! And I'm so excited. It's so nice to be relieved of the stress of school and of waking up at 6am and having all my time taken up.
And I'm so excited to not be in high school anymore! ALL OF MY FRIENDS CAN'T MAKE FUN OF ME FOR BEING A HIGH SCHOOL BABY ANYMORE! I've been waiting for so long for this!! Haha!

And also, while my parents are away from today through Saturday, my older sister Roxanne & her husband & their two children (you know them, those two cute babies I'm always putting pictures of up here!) are staying with us to watch Jen & I (I know, we're almost 18 but whatever). And I'm excited. I love Rob & Roxanne and just in the last day Roxanne and I have been texting, which we never do, just talking about what we'll do. Roxanne and I have never been very close, even when I was a kid. But now that I'm older it's getting a little easier, and I seriously want a good relationship with her because she's really an amazing woman and someone I look up to. So I look forward to spending good quality time with her and her family this weekend.