I'm back from Florida. It was fun, really fun. But not as relaxing as I'd hoped it'd be.
And something has become very blatantly obvious to me:
My anxiety is trying to come back.
I fought it so many times during the trip, and the last night I just didn't sleep because my stomach was in knots.
I worry about worrying. That's really it. I'm not worried about any life scenario, anything really dangerous.
I worry that I'll be worrying the rest of my life. And it's crippling, and God did NOT create me with a spirit of fear, but of power, of love, and with a sound mind.
And I have been praying myself blue in the face the last few days especially, just trying to cope with this. But am I really believing it? Am I truly believing that I am the healed and not the sick, above and not beneath? Or am I just crying out in complete desperation?
But I will keep on doing just that. I will praise Him while I'm waiting for all of this to clear up. Because I know God is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think. And all I'm asking is to be okay and to be healthy.
[Philippians 4:4-8]
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
[Matthew 28:20]
“And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
[Luke 12:22-26]
“Then Jesus said to his disciples: ‘Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?’”
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Yes!!! All of those verses are so encouraging. Janna are doing this week verse memorization thing, and Phil 4:6-7 was mine this week! I know how you're feeling though. I have anxiety problems too, but it's all about the way we think. We need to control our thoughts, you know? Instead of listening to yourself in your head, tell yourself what's up. Tell yourself you aren't going to worry because you have the Creator of the Universe on your side protecting you. Anytime you start worrying about worrying, tell yourself that you're done doing that, and then pray! I'm sure you're doing that though, you're a smart girl. But, none the less, I'll be praying. For sure. <3
I love you so much and I can't wait until tomorrow. Srsly. :)
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