Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me..lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me..lead me to the cross
I woke up a little today. Today at church. And I started tearing up.
Why did I ever leave my first love? What ever drew me away from the one my heart completely adored?
Minister Davis was mentioned the verse in the Bible that says God would rather us be hot for Him or cold to Him, but that He'd spit us out of His mouth if we were lukewarm. (Rev 3:14-15)
As Minister Davis described it, "lukewarm" isn't just being "sorta bad" sometimes, being "sorta good" sometimes.
Maybe it's more than just not doing "bad stuff".
Maybe it's not doing the good "stuff" God wants us to do. What have I done the last two months? Complained about how I hate winter?
Complained in general? I don't feel like any certain event or thing drew me away from my first love-- only my own selfish desires.
Where did my heart to serve go? When did I stop praying constantly?
A friend once showed me something from a book, a phrase called "spiritual masturbation".
Broken down, it basically means feeling good about God but it not lasting, it not reaping any real benefits other than making you feel good for a minute, or a day. We've all been there, I'm sure. Or at least I have. Where one day, one week, maybe even a whole month I'm just "on fire" for God. But I'm beginning to learn that closeness to God is not an emotion. It's a relationship, and like any other, there may be high points and low points. But does a husband ever stop loving his wife just because she had a bad day? Does a mother abandon her child because he did something bad? There's something further in a real relationship, in real love, and it has nothing to do with feeling. It's a commitment. I know, this is nothing new, but give me a break people.
When was the last time you got fed up with God because you didn't "feel" Him anymore?
Why did I ever leave my first love? What ever drew me away from the one my heart completely adored?
Minister Davis was mentioned the verse in the Bible that says God would rather us be hot for Him or cold to Him, but that He'd spit us out of His mouth if we were lukewarm. (Rev 3:14-15)
As Minister Davis described it, "lukewarm" isn't just being "sorta bad" sometimes, being "sorta good" sometimes.
Maybe it's more than just not doing "bad stuff".
Maybe it's not doing the good "stuff" God wants us to do. What have I done the last two months? Complained about how I hate winter?
Complained in general? I don't feel like any certain event or thing drew me away from my first love-- only my own selfish desires.
Where did my heart to serve go? When did I stop praying constantly?
A friend once showed me something from a book, a phrase called "spiritual masturbation".
Broken down, it basically means feeling good about God but it not lasting, it not reaping any real benefits other than making you feel good for a minute, or a day. We've all been there, I'm sure. Or at least I have. Where one day, one week, maybe even a whole month I'm just "on fire" for God. But I'm beginning to learn that closeness to God is not an emotion. It's a relationship, and like any other, there may be high points and low points. But does a husband ever stop loving his wife just because she had a bad day? Does a mother abandon her child because he did something bad? There's something further in a real relationship, in real love, and it has nothing to do with feeling. It's a commitment. I know, this is nothing new, but give me a break people.
When was the last time you got fed up with God because you didn't "feel" Him anymore?
4 comments:
i've definatelty been there with the "spititual masterbation" thing. there have been soo many times that i've been pumped about God & strengthening my faith by church and what not but then it fades. its not that something turned me off from him, its just i get caught up in life and just forget, until the next time I need Him. and its awful. I really do want to be closer to Him, and I know I sound hypocritical, but I don't know how to get out of this vicious cycle. God is always there for me when I ask for His help, and I need to step up and do my part. Its like I just... forget (idk how else to explain it).
i'm definately in the "lukewarm" category.
:/
i need to be better.
"and I know I sound hypocritical, but I don't know how to get out of this vicious cycle. God is always there for me when I ask for His help, and I need to step up and do my part."
Story of my life. And almost everyone elses.
Just remember God's grace and His love, both of which endure forever. He knows your heart and sees the good in it.
troy and i ended up having a really serious conversation about this that night. it kinda hit the nail on the head for the both of us.
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