The problem with staying up late is that I start having to confront my mind. All day long I'm just constantly going. I don't get a moment to really stop and think.
So here I am at one in the morning, thinking.
Do you have any dreams left? After just seventeen short years of being alive, I've seen mostly just evidence against all of my hopes and dreams. This world is programmed to keep us down, and kick us while we're there. We're all taught to believe in "fire insurance"; taking classes and jobs and relationships we hate, but that we keep around for security.
Where has all of our faith in the Provider to provide for us gone?
Oh. That's right. We're more confident in the destroyer to destroy us because we think that's all we're worth.
Including me.
You know those moments in life when the answer seems so clear? Like God is holding your hand and whispering in your ear how He is going to work everything out?
And for a few, unearthtly minutes, you believe it?
I'm working on keeping that feeling around; making that my only fire insurance. The only thing I rely on. Can you imagine the faith?
Can you imagine how far God could work in your life?
I have so many dreams, guys.
I want to change the world. I mean it. I want to shine light where it is dark, I want to bring hope to people in their darkest days, I want to spread the Truth, the Love, the HOPE that God is.
I want a man who loves me more and more each passing day, a man whose heart fits perfectly with mine.
I want to become the greatest disciple, to understand grace and to teach people to live in it.
I am consumed by hope.
3 comments:
Lynette, You Have an Outstanding ability to stir emotions through your photographs and your writing. This is the vision that G-d gave Oral Roberts about ORU, read this:
“Raise up your students to hear My voice, to go where My light is dim, where My voice is heard small, and My healing power is not known, even to the uttermost bounds of the earth. Their work will exceed yours, and in this I am well pleased.” Sounds Kinda familiar, eh? I know you'll be able to do all this and more!
Brian R.F. Davis
Ha, how cool! Thank you, brian.
I confont my mind like every other hour. I hate it. I wish I had more things to do. TO keep me OUT of my head. Cause then I bring my self down with sometimes VERY negative thoughts.
Your right about the world. How it pretty much sucks. Thats why you have to love the little things. Take as much joy out of anything good as you can.
Remember a while back when I said that I one day I just wana run away? I mean LEGIT run away. From everything. Not forever just for a little while. TO get away from everything. A little vacation. This is why. The whole WORLD is against us. Satan rules the world so of coarse it is against us. But of coarse with God nothing is impossible. HES GOT CHYOUR BACK!
But this is a very interesting thought you have conjured. People really do expect the worst always. They expect the devil. But expecting GOD? I never really thought of that. I just prayed to him when things werent goin well for me or my friends/family. I like the idea of expecting God. It bumps your faith to a whole new level just by thinking like that. Its so true too! In the end God takes care of everything. Just keep faith and you will see!(Fun thought: If you go to hell is it possible that you can start believing in God? Worship him even in Hell? Is it possible that He would pull you out of Hell? Or when the rapture happens that you will be given the ultimate second chance? I thought of that earlier and this seemed like the appropiate time to bring it up)
Lynette my dear. You are going to sohohoh many great glorious amazing beautiful things I get excited just typing it! Thinking about what you are gona do. You have this ultimate will to do good. You genuinely wnat to help! And the kicker is your faith in God! Its so much greater than what you think! A lot of people would have given up at this ponit. But no. Not Lynette Marie Wagner! She took her pain and suffering. Her (what seemed like) loosing faith and hope and flipped it into this eppifany(thats not spelt right)!
Into this re-realization that God's plan works out in the end. We forget that sometimes. It just happens when you live with the devil as a neighbor. But you pushed through. You moved away from his crazy @$$! Went from Detriot to Canton. Your dreams will come true. You will change the world. You already have. You just havent fully realized it yet. SUUBI? You got me reading the bible and praying to God everyday. You make a difference in so many peoples lives. If you just stopped existint one day...I would legitimately breakdown and cry. And you know how I am about crying. Real men dont cry :P. You mean that much to me. So dont go thinking that nobody cares about you ever! Cause I do! I always will. Come to school and smack me. Say that it was because my hair didnt look right. In about ten minutes I would have already said alright whatever. I love you plain and simple. You change my world and you continue to. I would not be who I am if it werent for you. Because God works through. At the young age of Seventeen. Its amazing. You bring hope to me. In MY darkest days. You were there for me and you helped.
Oh and you WILL find your MAN. Super Beard and all. I dont know how many times I have said this and I dont know how many times more I am gona say it. YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL PERSON! On the inside and on the outside. Whoever you man is he is one lucky dude. Not only will he love you more and more everyday but you will MAKE him love you more every day.
I love you. I dont know if you understand how much I do. I just wana make you happy. It seems like I do sometimes but I dont think I am doing good enough of a job.
What does all of this mean...(?)
<{You dont have to worry about anything.}> You have people who love unconditionaly. You have a great and almighty powerful God inside and all around you. The devil aint got nothin on you. The WORLD aint got nothin on you. Everything will be just fine.
-Guy(even though you already know that)
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