I was reading Kirstin's blog earlier today, and one of her friends in Uganda. Read his blog too.
I don't know what it is, but whenever I read the stories of these women, these children, the entire country of Africa.. it's like I get tunnel vision.
I don't hear conversation around me. I don't feel my feel falling asleep or my fingers freezing up.
My heart catches on fire and it burns. My heart burns and swells for the people in Africa who need help.
But is it my heart? Or is it God's?
Is this what I'm called to do? Am I called to get involved with Africa, with programs that minister to people in that continent?
Am I called to go to Africa?
It's freaking me out. I don't know if it's what God wants, or if it's just my own compassion for the helpless that's fueling my fire.
I see Kirstin. I see Sarah Alleman. I see what they're doing and I admire it. But is that what makes me want to help?
To do something admirable?
Maybe God wants to use me in other ways.
I just don't know.
But my heart's desire is to be God's hands and feet.
My heart's desire is to put down my desires and invite God's in.
I long for the eyes of my understanding to be enlightened,
so that I may know the hope of my calling (Eph 1:17-end of the chapter).
So this is me, God, telling you that if you want me to go to Africa, I'll go.
If you want me to stay right here, I'll stay.
If you want me to go to college, I will go. If you want me to work, I'll work.
Just let me know.
And it's comforting to know that You, Lord, want me to know the plan You have for my life even more than I want to know it.
I pray for clarity.
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I think it's amazing the faith you have in God, Lynette. I know very few people our age that feel as strongly about him, and it makes me so sad.
I know that you WILL get your answer, in some form or another.
(btw, i made a blog :P)
Patience.
Patience.
Patience.
Your question will be answered.
Its all about faith.
And you have plenty of it. More than you think.
I'm beginning to see how this all "works". I read my bible in just about every spare moment I had today at school. And a lot of "it" is just having faith. Trusing in God that he will take care of you. He plays the roll of father. All we have to do is be obidient children. Yes sometimes they run away to the street corner but the good ones come back.
I trust in him. It grows every day. My faith that is. I feel it. Just let go of your needs and wants here and it becomes so much easier. Easier said then done yes but it is possible. Anything is possible whith God.
He will answer your question. And you will know exactly what to do. Be strong and patient and believe. I believe in you.
P.S. Love, Hugs, and Eskimo Kisses via internet.
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